Just for the record......(I'll add it)...I wasn't saying I DIDN'T like seeing the mushroom or Cat. Although, I would also like to see your faces some day.

I don't think it's official unless it's in the record thread.  ???

(I know you said you liked them both.  I'm just especially partial to the mushroom girl.)  :)

i also have trouble remembering people.  like, if someone changes an avatar, i ususally think, oo a new person hanging around, then i start to think, hmmm, what happened to the person with that other avatar?  hm, i wonder where they went, then i'll realize, later, that they are the same person.  i dont know whats going on.  : )

I got one mention on the other thread, but it was shared. Just so you know.

I have some pretty bad coping habits. Hitting things, purposely getting into fight with people I love, hurting myself. Just to name a few. Lately I've been beginning to feel stressed, and all I can think about it cutting. I can feel it where I want it too.

On the bright side, I have coping strategies that are better. Walking (with or without my dog), writing, deep breathing, browsing vegweb. I used to write poetry when I first tried to stop cutting, but I haven't written a poem in years.

I love you guys.

just for the record, I think about and worry about you alot.  you said in one of your earlier post that you were feel fat and ugly, but you are so cute, you look like Drew Barrymore!  Take care of yourself and your diabetes, and talk it out when you have a bad day!

I sleep, or have long blathering cries at my bf. He's really quite tolerant about it, especially if he's not the source of the problem  ;)b

I wish crying could be a coping strategy for me. But I don't cry, not really. Only at the most ridiculous times - when I feel like a lost child, helpless, alone. One of the last times I cried was when I missed the Greyhound to get home for Thanksgiving (this was my first year away for university). I blathered like a baby in front of a bunch of people (mostly fellow university students). How embarrassing.

Well, that's not much worse than "is everything else ok?" "is there something else wrong?"  No!!!!!!

I cry a lot and easily.  I truly cry about anything.  At times I am embarrassed but my family is use to it because that is just me.  The past couple of years I have used alcohol as a coping strategy. Not to the point of abuse but still concerning. I have a lot of family stress and when it gets bad I turn inward and at times shut down to some extent. 

Wow, I feel sorry for those who don't cry.  Crying is something I am really good at!  I try not to cry in public though, but sometimes I just can't help it.  I used to have a problem with crying, I used to think "big girls don't cry" and "crying is a sign of weakness" because that is what my mom taught me as a kid.  I also used to get the line "stop crying or I will give you a reason to cry" a lot.  But about a year ago I was visiting a psychiatrist and she was really great.  She told me that it is okay to cry, there is nothing wrong with it.  So now, I let it out, and it really does help.

But as far as coping, others here have some pretty good ideas, bike rides, walks, etc.  I don't do that, maybe I should.  I sleep, eat, cry, and sometimes to help bury the emotion because it sometimes gets too much I play video games, simple ones that don't take a lot of thinking.  I get so absorbed into the game that I forget the world.  Before I got preggers I used to drink a lot.  I would even take sleeping pills like Nyquil or something just to go to sleep, because I believed that if I could just get to sleep, things always look better in the morning.  But of course, I dont' do anything like that anymore.

Oh, forgot, the cats too help.  Sometimes I grab a cat, bury my face in his or her fur and cry.  They don't seem to appreciate it too much, but it helps too.

I used to get those lines from my mom a lot, how weak people do it, and she'd tell me i look ugly when i cry, so i never would in front of her. My cats got my back. They are like the siblings I always wished were human. They're only a year younger than I, and we've had them since they were born...so they've been there for everything. They don't mind when I bury my face in their bellies and cry. They go along with it and jump on the perfect oppourtunity to chew my hair....

To all the criers: any tips for giving a toast as your baby sister's wedding????? I dunno how the heck I'm gonna get through that one...

I'm a big time cryer too.  I try to think of funny things to stop the tears, but a toast at your sisters wedding....let the tears begin!  lol