I am increasingly getting unhappy down here and my anger is directed mainly toward where I live than anything else.  I hate Houston, I hate TX, you all have heard it before.

I try to keep that un-settled talk here but I find sometimes I let it slip here at work.  I mentioned today, without thinking how I don't like the food down here and miss the food up north.  Poeple started picking on me about it, but I don't want my job to know that I am getting unhappy living  here.  I don't want to do anything to risk loosing my job before the baby is born.  Now granted, me complaining about the nasty food down here isn't going to get me fired, but it is going to let my job know that I am unhappy here, and they will deduce that I am thinking of quitting, and as such, may go ahead and fire me before the baby is born. 

I really have to watch what I say.  But it is hard.  The closer my time comes to go back to Syracuse next month, the more sick I am of being here, the more I want to leave.  Oh, I also let it slip too that I thought it was too hot down here, it was a comment in passing, and it was only to one person so it is okay.  But I can't let my company know!  They have to think I am happy, doo doo laa dee da, and I plan to stay here for the rest of my life because I just love my company and I just love TX and all that. 

Am I being overly paranoid?  If I got fired AFTER the baby was born, that would actually help me.  But not before, OMG not before.  I need the health insurance!