Where the H*** is the money going to come from!

NY state raises property taxes, as a result, my rent for my apartment went up.  NY state is raising toll bridge costs, it already cost me around $15 to get off this stupid island in tolls alone...ONE WAY!  Now I hear they are raising sales tax for pet products, from food, to toys.  Is my income going up?...hell no!  

I know it isn't "zen" and I declared myself buddhist, and it goes against my faith to worry about this stuff, but I am so darn frustrated.  Now I find out that the daycare wants $150 from me for "re-registration"...WTF!  As if the $325 a week I am paying for daycare isn't enough!  

Where is this money supposed to come from, my ass?  My cat hasn't been to the vet in two years, and she  has worms, can I do anything about it...no because I dont' have the money.  I need new contacts but I can't afford the copay, and my son hasn't been to the doctor for his wellness visit in over 6 months because I can't afford the copay.  

I am looking and looking for a new job somewhere where cost of living is cheaper, but so far I am not having luck.  I am not giving the stupid daycare $150, that is rediculous.

And where is all that money NY state is collecting from me in income and sales tax...and isn't illegal to pay taxes twice on money?  Isn't that what we are doing by paying both income AND sales tax?  

Ugh, I am so frustrated, it is like they want me to pull money out of my ass, IT ISN'T THERE, YOU CAN'T GET IT FROM ME BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE IT, YOU f*(&^^!'

Sorry, I just needed to vent.  I try to keep cool and  think of the teachings I have read, but it is so hard.  I FINALLY got state income tax return too, like more then a month after I filed for it.  Next thing you know they won't give that back at all, and that money is important,  it is the only thing that is going to keep me affloat for the next six months as I am paying out more in  bills then I make.  

And when I try to get some kind of help from the government to help pay for food, copays, etc they see my income and are like...uh uh, you don't need it,  you make too much money, but do they take into account that I live on one of the highest cost-of-living places in the country and my rent is attrocious?  No, do they look at my student loan bills, my daycare costs...no, they don't care, I make too much money, never mind that I pay horrendously high rent and daycare bills.   How can a person get by?  Honestly?

I heard on the radio a guy called in about this new health care thing, and he was from Canada and said that he moved to the US to get away from the Canadian universal health care, taxes are too high, now they are doing the same here.  So rediculous, I can't afford any more taxes to do they care?  No.  Do they care that I won't be able to pay my rent, daycare, or GROCERIES, no.  

I can't afford to work, I can't afford to not work. 

Okay, I am good, done venting.