I'm back! An update.
I'm back in the saddle again.
Though I won't be talking as much as I was before, now that I have my hands full with a newborn baby.
For those who don't remember me, I was a regular on here up until about a month ago. Then I vanished, I was pregnant, and used to use my ultrasounds and stuff as my avatar. Now, Micheal J. was born Sept 20 at 5:16 am. He was 6lbs, 0oz. He was induced and I had 20 hours of labor, and confined to bed almost the entire time. He was induced because he had stopped growing inside. In three weeks he had gained only 1/2 a pound. Now that he is out, he is growing 1/2 a pound a week! And I exclusively breastfeed. It is amazing that he could grow so well on just breast milk.
Anyway, this little guy has become the apple of my eye. Before I got pregnant, I used to have bouts of depression, was partially suicidal, was on mood stabilizers for manic depression, etc. Now, all of that is gone. I am taking no antidepressants, and I feel as if I am on cloud nine. Yes, I am very tired, but I look at this baby, and I feel a euphoria, so happy. I had never thought I could be so happy.
And I was considering abortion back on January and February when I first got pregnant. I even made the appointment, I didn't go, I couldn't for some reason. I am glad I did not! I would have mercilessly killed this precious, perfect, baby boy that has made me more happy than I ever thought I could be! I had no idea how happy I would be. I looked at the negative things, up every two hours to feed and change diapers, cost money, interrup my career, etc. What a fool I was! Yes, I am up every 2 hours to change diapers, yes he costs money, yes he has interrupted my career, but non of that matters. When I look at his adorable face, look at his tiny and perfect toes and fingers, I am overwhelmed with warmth and love.
Opps, have a poopy diaper to change. Talk soon.
That's awesome, SQ! I'm so happy for your happiness! Welome back, matey.
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Y'know, I was thinking about your old post(s) back when you first found out you were pregnant, reflecting on the advice I gave you then.....and while I still stand by a woman's right to choose her own path in life even if it means sacrificing a part of herself, I am so, SO happy that you decided to abandon that option.
Only you could have known what was best for you, and it looks like you made the right choice!
Little Mike must be one of the (if not THE) greatest gifts you could ever have. Keep us updated on the lil' guy and all the joys of motherhood!
Sounds like you are doing a beautiful job as a mother!! As a single mom myself, I can say that it is a lot of work, but most certainly a labor of love!! Your baby is so lucky to have you as his mama!! Keep up the great work, and know that it just gets easier all of the time!!
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Definitely the right choice. Our choices are best defined by their consequences. Looks like you've got a winner there. :)>>>
I'm so glad you are doing well.....your post brought tears to my eyes, as I can certainly relate! Its a love like no other and it just grows and grows. :)>>> :)>>>
Keep us updated and post some more pics!
Welcome back snowqueen.....kisses for Lil Mike :-* :)>>>
All the best to the two of you.....if you need a sitter, I'm available.
jessesmum, thanks for offering to be my sitter. You'd be great!
I love this site, everybody is still, and always has been so sweet.
I put gloves and socks on him for the first time. He didn't know how to take it, but he just said...okay.
is there a site dedicated to LOLBabies?
'cuz if there isn't, there oughta be....
I'd caption that with, "Duuude, haha...what happened to my fingers, Mom?"
;D what a cutie!
Welcome back SQ! I'ts good to hear that everything is going so well and that you're feeling great in yourself. Yay you! (and lil Mike)
Awww, I am so happy for you SQ. This post makes it so I just CAN'T WAIT any longer until my little one is born....but I have to wait until April! >:( I get more excited every day. Congrats again, he sure is super cute!
That's brilliant, SQ. I was wondering how you were getting on and posted just last week! He looks a cutie and baby cuddles are great aren't they! Keep on keeping on, SQ, you're doing fab.
x kiki
He's beautiful, SQ! Children are such a treasure.
I am SO pleased for you! It sounds like you fell instantly in love with him. He will always be the main man in your life! You're blessed you have him and he is equally blessed to have you.
What you viewed as an interruption all those months ago will, in the fullness of time, give your life a depth and purpose that you never imagined. They don't stay babies forever, but you know that. As they grow your love for them grows too. I always tell mine, I can't wait until tomorrow because then I will love you more than I do today, and it is true.
My oldest girl went off to college and she is in her sophomore year. She is an RA to 50 students. She is engaged to a really nice soldier I introduced her to (just as it happens) and she is doing well. I was talking with her earlier and remembering how afraid I was when I found out I was pregnant. I had my 2 boys and I had almost died having the second one. I didn't think my then husband would take the news too well, but in one of his rarer moments he was very loving and accepting. She was then, and has always been, something very magical. I adored her as a baby, as a child, even as a teenager. Now that she is an adult, I love her even more. I respect her, her decisions and choices. I admire this child of mine.
I wish all that and more for you and your little one (who is very handsome!).
So good to hear from you. He's beautiful!
OMG SnowQueen!!!! Congrats!!!! sooo exciting and your baby boy is a cutie :)
SnowQueen, what a beautiful little guy. I'm so happy to have you back, and so glad for you. Hugs to you and baby.